I can feel my wallet groaning
That’s right, I have taken up the awesome hobby of….airsofting :D
For those of you who don’t know what that is: think paintball but more fun, more realistic, cheaper and the people who play aren’t tossbags.
I forgot how lovely these were.
“I hate what didn’t kill me; it never made me stronger”
Well afuckingmen to that
To be honest: if I hadn’t promised not to self harm I’d be dead by now instead of crying myself to sleep and tearing my hair out.
Honestly I don’t feel alive anymore and the only thing keeping me going is work as I’m too busy to dwell on things.
Just want to be fucking normal
a year of abstinence
Well after the past year under the false hope of re-enlistment and avoiding drugs and self harm it’s come back that being treated for depression while serving is generally frowned upon so in short: fuck off we don;t want you anymore.
A year of bottling things up and tearing hair out to be stabbed in the back by the people you so willingly signed your life away to and they cast you aside as damaged goods cheers mate, nice to know the system cares and tereats you well.
So it all came out: one night of drinking and there’s me sat on the side of the road pouring my heart out clutching a bottle of vodka covered in cuts and burns to someone I barely know.
Don’t I just lead a fucking lovely life :)
Sometimes lying is the answer
When someone asks if you’re okay it’s easier to just lie and say yes. I mean half the time they only ask because it’s the done thing “Hey, u ok?” “yh u?” and so on. No one really wants to hear what’s bothering you and frankly it’s easier to say you’re fine and not burden them with your life story.
SATANIC CROSS.
Erm no it’s not, there is nothing Satanic about an inverted cross
bicknarry asked: Fantastic argument.
Right well what have the PIRA actually accomplished? Fuck all seeing as NI is still British soil and will be for years to come.
PIRA will never be anything mote than murdering scum living in dreamworld
For future reference: don’t fall asleep otherwise you’ll wake up with a beard of my pubes
